It’s funny cause I don’t fucking do anything.
I don’t talk shit about people. I ignore when I have issues with problems with people, so I avoid having issues. I don’t look for fights, I don’t instigate, I don’t do absolutely anything.
And yet people still hate me? Why?
I don’t understand. I honestly couldn’t be less confrontational then I am now. And people still hate me…I don’t get it. And yeah sure people’s opinions aren’t suppose to matter or whatever but it bothers me. It’s more then that it dictates my entire life. See, it’s shit like this that makes me just want to drop off the face of the earth because it’s not fair. I try so fucking hard just to not even to be liked, but just be neutral and still.
And then when I get into my ‘fuck it’ attitudes and put myself out there for who I am I still get fucking rejected. It’s like, what am I fucking suppose to do? There’s no safe area, everything just fucking sucks all the fucking time. I’m just so done. I hate everything.
I’m like at this point where it’s not even described as sadness, or anger or being unsatisfied or not good enough.
It’s just exhaustion. I’m just so tired of feeling this way.
Sometimes I swear I would give anything just to be dead.
I’m not going to lie, you fucked me up.